Becca

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 04:33:18 GMT

My school is AMAZING!!!

The Top Ten of 2005

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 23:38:44 GMT

because it's tradition....
the top ten of 2005 in no particular order.....
1.AUSTRALIA, NEW ZEALAND, and HAWAII. everything about that trip was amazing. I got to see places I've been dreaming about since the 7th grade. I stood a foot away from a kangaroo and visited Hobbiton
2.Graduating high school. what an amazing day, we never thought it would come.
3.The cry huddle after seeing the Sisterhood.we may not have magicalpants, but we'll stay friends forever.
4.Beachweek with my favorite people in the world. bubbles and star gazing.
5.The Last Supper. Saying goodbye has never been so fun!! seeing everyone's faces when I gave them their boxes, the traveling journal, and the circle of friends picture that took an hour.
6.COLLEGE! moving in and adjusting was so easy and getting rid of any doubts about choosing UMD. realizing, I can do this!
7.turning 18! it's the age everyone wants to be. you can by lottery tickets, go to real jail, and vote. and you get 18 reasons why people love you. is there anything better?
8.My small group. We're such a strange mix of people but we aggregate like a slime mold. There's so much love. From feeding the hungry to a 4 hour game of horse to the 12 weeks of small group we are amazing!
9.The IV Christmas Ball. "There's nothing better than a room full of people who love God" dancing like idiots for 4 hours straight! best night of the semester!!
10.WINTER BREAK! having people count down the days til I got home I'm so blessed with everyone in my life, The Ace Gang reunion in Berkley Springs, Christmas with the family, the movies, shopping trips, eating fests, and all the laughter!!!

So many good memories.
Possibly the best year of my life.
We didn't just survive 2005, we kicked its ass!!!
I am blessed beyond my belief.
2006, it's gonna be good!

Oh la la la la la la..

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 07:05:34 GMT

I am having one extraoridinary week and I'm feeling posty so here we go...

The IV fall retreat was fantastic. I learned a lot from the speaker (even though I was dosing off during some of the sessions) and from my small group. Just listening to the other people talk in small group is amazing. I know I need to rely more on God and glorify him in everything I do (yea even schoolwork)And even though our small group leaders mission in life was to separate me and Dani this weekend I got to meet so many amazing people like star gazing with Maggie and jamming to chris's weird mixes and discussing the crazy german pope with robert. the retreat was so different from the ones I'm use to where its only a few people who already know eachother so well, but I loved it. I can't believe a week has already past.

and coming home was such a let down, but on monday our small group aggregated like a slime mold and went to see Diana's (my favorite bio major ever) concert. honestly I could hang out with these kids every day.

then tuesday i found out i got an A on my first college paper ever. have i mentioned how much i love my economics professor. He think's I am a brilliant economics student and always gives me A's. i will miss him dearly next semester. and in my chem lab I got this huge letter from the investigation the professor did into my lab groups academic dishonesty. basically it said he looked into it and he's still giving us all zeros for the lab (but lucky me gets partial credit because I told the TA the truth). I prayed a lot about this situation and I feel content about it and how i acted. My group did mess up and tried lying to get themselves out of it, but I didn't even bother talking to them about it (since it was their fault!) or complaining to the professor about our punishment and my TA and the prof respect me for it.
then I had gems colloquim, where the first years sit and listen to third year teams discuss their projects so far. I really dont know what to do about this program. I mean gemstone is an awesome opportunity and could be really rewarding but its so much work and theres so much i want to do in college. meh.
so i thought i would be super late to IV cuz of colloquim and i was upset becuase I really needed to be there but colloquim got out early and I made it to IV almost ontime. Tuesdays are becoming my favorite nights of the week. I love praise and worship and the speakers are always so good.
so dani and I are going to be helping our sg buddy keith plan a coffee house for IV. which i'm excited about but also have no idea exactly what we need to plan.
I'm also doing this Aequitas Event tomorrow. It's a big secret they wont tell us exactly whats happening. and I don't know anyone whose going...so it should be fun, right. I'm really intrested in this though, its basically a religious service group thats fighting injustice or some such. and I miss doing community service (we all know leos was my baby) i did habitat a few weeks ago and i loved it so i'm looking in to doing it again soon.

And then tonight, the David Crowder Band Concert. Once again he was amazing. "theres nothing like a room full of people who love God". amen. I'd been looking forward to this forever. and it rocked. DCB is so awesome live. and I got to meet Danielles youth pastor again, who is quite possibly the coolest youth pastor I've ever met. and i got to meet her boy again. you made the right choice kid! he's adorable. oh! and we had dinner at a real restaurant. not the diner! oh man i was so excited.

and this weekend will be amazing. my small group is making lunches for people living in a halfway house/shelter and the spending the day together. I am so excited. and I also have so much work to catch up on, that part really blows.

This week has also made me sad. I've never been on a retreat without my bext friedn. and about a year ago todayish we were at mandokin with youth group staring at gabe in horror as he showed us his bbq sauce covered hand. and the last time i saw david crowder i was sitting next to amy and the rest of the youth group. life was good back then. I can't wait for reunion time with kelly and hopefully emily next week! and thanksgiving, I'm going to Boston! I'll get to see my family who i havnt seen since last thanksgiving. i hate how life gets so complicated i can only see the people i love once a year. hopefully i'll get back in time to see everyone before break ends!

i've said all i need to say right now. God loves me, life is so good.

i'll be calling you to see

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 22:43:33 GMT

In the spirit of being the laziest shit in the world....let's update!

College is bad. not in a bad way. but I have taken advantage of this whole freedom/no one to boss you around thing. Like staying up all hours and not eating vegetables. and my butt has become permanently attached to my desk chair. in part because I am on the computer all the time and also in part because i've decided its the coolest spot in my room. temperature wise that is.
I didn't know I said I wanted to live in an oven on my housing form....

overall college is a blast. my classes all suck and I work harder than anyone else...but hey theres a correlation to how hard you work and how much money you make. i just used correlation in a sentence.
i do have a crush on my econ prof. he reminds me of my grandpa and says such quotable things like "I'm going to sit in the corner getting high for the rest of my life" and "it's cheaper for you if you run over an old man".

i go to the gym a lot. well...i try. still havnt braved the weight room bc of all the big msucley guys. they could bench press me. sorry but i can only bench half my body weight thanks. and i walk like 10 miles a day anyways so i dont really need the gym. yes i do. the quesidillas are just that good.

I've decided i really like football. tomorrows game will be awesome!

I've also decided my hall sucks. its so antisocial and boring i hate it. thats why i've become cumb 7's bitch. i love my roomate. we are like twins. we think the same cool stuff is cool and the same crap stuff is crap. i'm a slob compared to her. yes it's true.

visiting amber was fun. both uva and marywash are gorgeous schools. and when they come to visit me they will think i go to school in a landfill. but i love my landfill. its perfect. well not temperature wise.

and now i will go stuff my face and spen all my meal points before they are stolen from me. and then some college SOCCER! oh i'm pumped

i'm your best friend

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 04:03:43 GMT

tonight was ridiculously fun. car rides with mike and amber are a life changing experience.

so best friend number 1 is leaving tomorrow. I leave in 6 days. How did we let this happen?

I miss everyone already

I'M HOME!

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 01:49:37 GMT

Kia~ora! Aloha! G'day mate! whatever

I'm finally home. I can't believe how long it's been. It's good to be home cuz i've missed people and apparently i've been missed a lot but it also sucks cuz the last 20 days having been amazing. I already miss having fun all day (well for most of the day) and all the people i got to know. it's so like me to meet all these new people who i will never see again.

theres no way i can sit here long enough to type everything we did so here what is at the top of my head

~leaving on a sunday and ariving on tuesday....its like time travel
~stealing the next door neighbors phone and then giving it back the next day
~going to a bar in new zealand "hey i'm legal!" are you guys intoxicated?
~holding a baby lamb
~sky swinging in new zealand
~visiting hobbiton
~the boat ride through a glow worm cave
~watching the haka and doing the pui dance
~swimming in the geyser pool
~seeing the national symphony perform in the sydney opera house
~fungi shuing our hotel room
~the taronga zoo
~standing a foot away from kangaroos
~riding the steepest railroad in the world
~changing in the back of the tour bus
~all those nights we "played cards"

yea this list will have to be continued

my last day in the usa

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 00:51:22 GMT

one year ago today I was in Paris, France
and in a few hours I will be boarding the plane for New Zealand.

I am one lucky kid.

I've dreamed about going to Australia since 7th grade when I did that report on marsupials for Mr. Murray. I've spent my life savings on this trip so it better be life changing.

I feel quite unprepared for this trip. I didnt get a travel book. I don't really know what we are going to do once they get there. and i don't know if they take mastercard.

here's what i do know
new zealander's call themselves Kiwis. there are lots of sheep. maori's perform the haka or something and bug their eyes out. its the home of lotr. i hope i meet peter jackson

Australians use charming words like crikey, bonza, and prawns on the barbi. the natural habitat of many cute creatures such a Koala bears, wallabies, and kangaroos. the home of many fine actors including heath ledger. I hope i meet heath ledger.

and Hawaii.lots of surfers. we kinda helped overthrow the queen so we could steal all their sugar (yea i passed ap us!)hula dances!

as you can see i am a font of information.

ahhhh i'm so excited i might pee myself.

don't be worried if i don't come back. i plan on running away with a gorg aussie surfer type.

i'm going snorkling on the great barrier reef. ahhhhh!

here's the itinerary just for fun

Trip Itinerary

Optional Individual Stay Ahead $125

Day 1 > June 19 > Start tour
Fly to Auckland, New Zealand

Day 2 > June 20 > International Date Line

Lose day as you cross the International Date Line

Day 3 > June 21 > Auckland Landmarks

Meet your Tour Director & check into hotel
Auckland guided sightseeing tour
War Memorial Museum visit
Tarlton’s Underwater World visit
Dinner

Day 4 > June 22 > Auckland--Rotorua

Travel to Rotorua
Agrodome visit
Maori Hangi feast

Day 5 > June 23 > Rotorua Landmarks

Rotorua guided sightseeing tour
Maori Cultural Centre visit
Whakarewarewa Thermal Reserve visit
Skyline gondola ride on Mt. Ngongotaha

Day 6 > June 24 > Rotorua--Sydney

Travel to Auckland
Waitomo Caves visit
Glowworm Grotto visit
Fly to Sydney
Dinner

Day 7 > June 25 > Sydney Landmarks

Sydney guided sightseeing tour
Darling Harbour
The Rocks
Opera House visit
Sydney Tower visit

Day 8 > June 26 > Sydney Cruise

Explorer Catamaran ride

Day 9 > June 27 > Outside Sydney

Optional Katoomba & the Blue Mountains full-day excursion $65
Dinner

Day 10 > June 28 > Sydney--Cairns

Fly to Cairns
Cairns guided sightseeing tour
Esplanade
Wharf Street
City Place
Dinner

Day 11 > June 29 > Great Barrier Reef

Great Barrier Reef full-day excursion

Day 12 > June 30 > Outside Cairns

Kuranda full-day excursion
Rail ride
Skyrail Cable Car
Tjapukai Aboriginal Dance Theatre

Day 13 > July 01 > Cape Tribulation

Mossman & Cape Tribulation National Park full-day excursion
Daintree River cruise
Cape Tribulation National Park guided walk

Day 14 > July 02 > Cairns--Honolulu

Fly to Hawaii

Day 15 > July 03 > Honolulu Landmarks

Honolulu guided sightseeing tour
Iolani Palace
Kawaiahao Church
King Kamehameha statue
City Hall
Mission Houses
Punchbowl National Cemetery
Pearl Harbor visit
Honolulu beach time

Day 16 > July 04 > Honolulu

Honolulu beach time
Luau evening

Day 17 > July 05 > Flight Home
Fly from Honolulu

i NEED to pack! I'm flying half way around the world tomorrow.
I'll miss everyone soooo much!

why can't i feel anything...

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 17:25:25 GMT

there's been too many deaths and broken hips for me to handle. I am so emotionally numb. i can't be sad. i can't make myself be sad. i've already cried all my tears.

it's like that song she's gonna break soon

moving on

beach week (well the 3 days of it i got to experience) were fantastic
to sum it up i will steal from danielle's list which she stole from amber

~bubbles, bubbles, bubbles!!! it was the theme of the week
~belting out disney songs...should i marry kocoum? whats around the river bend is an analogy to our lives right now
~since you been gone on the bay bridge (on the way there and back)
~taking pictures of everything! that scary spider and the kitty kat inn
~grocery shopping with 7 girls (baby pineapples!!!)
~10 things I Hate About You (mmm heath ledger!)
~rating the top 5
~"Now that you've graduated from the porch, you'll need some really good adult cards to cream your way to the top" and " i was so excited i spanked" (Madlibs)
~sleeping with danielle (haha) in the bitch loft. we need a fuckin door!!
~FU on the beach
~SUNBURN like none other
~the cottage cafe, the crab dip, and the other crews drunken stories
~having that weird waiter take our picture, jk he doesnt work there
~having austin follow us around
~cherry jello shooters (we scarfed down that pan!!)
~lying in the cold sand an starring up at the stars while people tried to get me in trouble
~austin fishing me out of that puddle
~squishing on to one towel with my two favorite girls and talking about things ~that made people want to kick us off the beach
~dinner with the coolest kids
~amber driving me home when she didn't have to

so i had to leave before all the real fun started haha. acctually i'm glad i went home, i'm kinda afraid of the stories i heard.

so then on to orientation
it was too hot to be alive but they made us haul ass around campus anyways. and trudging through that hurricane was great.
i think i am going to really like maryland.
the first person i saw was brain garvey. and we were in the same group all day. figures. but i found kristen eventually so i had a friend.
i was great though cuz everyone was so excited to be there. random hot guys from new york acted like they were my best friends. and there were some cute gemstone boys. we get to live with them!!!
my schdule kinda sucks. bio at 10 and chem at 11. calc 4 days a week and chem everyday! yikes. oh well no classes before 10 am. i dunno why they put me in calc. i failed that palcement test. damn non graphing calculators
ha i'm excited

hung out with the girls on monday. i feel like all i did was shop. maybe thats cuz i did. target twice in 5 hours thats just insane. amber and i spent 4 hours sitting on the floor and trying on watches.

tuesday i woke up bright and early to deal with the hell that is 270. ew commuting sucks. and then the hospital had no idea i was volunteering that day but whatever. i looked so cute with my uniform and badge. i can't wait unitl my pink coat turns into a white one. i think the volunteering in pediatrics will be awesome. my supervisor is really cool but the nurses are kind of bitches. i didnt really do much beside disinfect toys and clean the play room cuz all the kids were sleeping but i still had fun.

so i was suppose to start at coldstone this morning but the store isnt reayd or something so i get to go in at 3 instead. and then i have my cmap meeting at 7. having three jobs was such a bad idea. i'm already exhausted and summer just started.

and now you're back

i leave for the land down under in 4 days. i've been waiting for this trip for 4 years and it's finally here. i still can't believe it...

Where do we go from here?

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 03:30:19 GMT

I don't even know what to say

Graduation turned out alright. Even though we were inside, I dunno it kinda figures considering all the bad things that happened during the last four years, all of which we were reminded of in everyones speech. the ceremony was nice and most of the speechs were good. I loved how everyone looked gorgeous in their white gowns. marching in to pomp and circumstance made me want to cry. the kid next to me was pretty hysterical "she sits next to me!" wow arn't you special. and all the beach balls, that was just awesome.

lunch at that's amore with the benjamins was fun. there were octipi in my pasta. pretty nasty. and the waiter. i love him. way too much good food and desert. then i had to haul ass over the shady grove to get my tb test checked. it was negative! I'm so excited and totally nervous about volunteering in pediatrics. it's so weird knowing that this is my first step towards my goal of becoming a doctor.

sisterhood of the traveling pants with my girls was so good. in a way it is just what we needed and the worst thing we could do to ourselves. an emotional movie about friends is maybe the worst/best thing to see on graduation. all the emotions that had been building up in me the entire last month of school decided to explode during the credits. that amberina kept making me cry! the uncontrolable sobbing huddle outside the theatre is unforgetable. and even though we don't have magical jeans I know we will all stay friends. why? because we have to. i can't surrvive with out them.

so today was pretty stressful. I was decorting for the party and had to rush home to help my dad get a new washing machine (it decides to break before i do my laundry from colorado and before i need to pack for beach week and orientation!!) so a few cuts and broken toes later we got the thing down the stairs and installed. my daddy asked what was he gonna do with out me to help him with the heavy lifting. i don't know why that made me so sad.

the party was so fun. I'm so thankful to the moms for planning it. i got to see everyone I wanted to see. the room looked awesome. the food was good, the music was good, my picture board looked awesome and the superlatives! haha i think i may have won most kissable, how did that happen? oh and the presents! my parents got me a printer, flat screen monitor, 150 australian dollars and an IPOD! heck yes. I was gonna buy one with all my grad money but now i can buy all the fun stuff instead.

tomorrow is going to be insane. i lost track of all the parties i'm going to. i need to get cards and presents for some of these kids. and i need to get money for beach week, and pack for that and orientation! god orientation I cannot think about nect fall right now. classes I need to take and everything i need to do are just over my head right now. i hope the advisors are good at advising because i need advice.

beach week will rock. i wish some of my girls who werent invited were coming with us. boo on that. i need my fatties with me!

AUSTRALIA is in two weeks. the four year wait is over. man more packing. some one make me a list.

so summer starts now. the jobless girl now has three. Coldstone (in Germantown! heck yes), Church Camp (so excited!!),and shady grove. sooo busy. but i WILL make time for my friends!

being slutty in college and Queen panama

Fri, 27 May 2005 04:12:40 GMT

yea quick recap

saturdays trip to hershey park was phenomenal. i have never driven for so long in my entire life but it was worth it. if you would like to know more about the fatties + amy+ melly's boyfriend trip please refer to dani's journal or ask to listen to her recording. it will change your life. oh and I <3 melly's boyfriend. he thinks i'm pretty! that made my week. i'm so happy for her and quite jealous.

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were pretty bad. I FAILED with a capital F anatomy and Calc. I just sat there and laughed. english was fine i got and A on the essay and a 90% on my CS Lewis research paper. and yes i deserved it. haha

awards ceremony was pretty fun. I acctually won stuff that mattered this year and all my girls got scholarships and stuff. and I got to hold a giant check for 2000 bucks. had to check out early tho to pick up the diz in rockville. yea being abandoned by parents is fun until you have be responsible and stuff. its exhausting. and the only bad thing i did was forge a note. i am so boring.

first day of summer aka today was great. funeral shopping with amy is always fun....you know like trying out caskets and stuff. I'm really gonna miss these random trips i persuade her to come on becuase I dont wanna go by myself. :*(
and the coldstone audition was definetly interesting. after that public humilation they better hire me. and yes I did learn how to step.
the 2 hour coldstone party was fun too. even waiting in line with those girls is great.

and i should probably finish packing for the CO (its the oc backwards). and I heard its suppose to snow. great snow on my uncle's funeral, and it was the 5 feet of snow that his body was under that killed him. thats just cruel.
wow do i not want to go. I havent gotten really sad yet because and avalanche is just so ridiculous and i'm still in shock. I guess I have to face the fact that its real.

so everyone call me and tell me how much fun your having on your first weekend of no more highschool!

my hearts been stomped on

Sat, 21 May 2005 04:05:37 GMT

so I come home from Kelly's and my dad says he has bad news..

I think crap! for some reason I can't drive to Hershey Park tomorrow...

No

my uncle died.

In an avalanche.

AN AVALANCHE! that kind of thing happens on TV, not to my family.

they were highschool sweethearts, married for over 30 years. and now he's just gone. 3 weeks before his daughter's graduation.

tragedy
one daughter was fired from her job this week.
one lost her husband.
whats my mom going to get?

I cannot handle this

The Future Freaks Me Out

Tue, 17 May 2005 03:02:00 GMT

i'm on fire
and now i think i'm ready
to bust a move

the theme of everyones lj seems to be the uncertainty of the year ending. so i'm gonna jump off the cliff

this past week contained a lot of lasts for me

*last concert*
after NINE years its over. after over 30 concerts in the DHS auditorium I'm never going to perform there again. I don't think I realize how much orchestra is part of my life. Every day for the past 4 years I was in that band room. This year has been such a let down tho. It just wasnt the same without mr. gregory and my moos sisters. and we didnt play rotk or have senior recognition at the concert. I'm almost happy to get away. maybe i'll play at cp maybe i won't.

*last relay*
so the final relay was pretty good (nothing will top last year tho). our team was totally different and i'm not gonna lie it was kinda weird. but I went knowing it wouldn't be the same so it was no big shocker. the only thing that was the same was the rain. some things never change. but trips to ledos, car parties, and starbucks runs made up for it. btw where the eff is my soccer ball? the fatties had a bonding session and pulled an all night. most of it was spent walking to the bathroom (I have over active kidneys) and jamming to emo.

and i just spilled gravy on the floor so this will have to be continued

i won't be around here for to very long

Mon, 09 May 2005 00:56:41 GMT

AP exams are over. I can finally start to live again.
Lit was a bitch. if i could've studied for it i should have.
US was so easy it was actually fun. well not really. I probably really effed it up cuz I didn't skip any. but i rocked the essays. molly pitcher heck yes!

friday was probably the best day of my life. or close to it.
I can't believe our plan actually worked. can't believe the dani's car didnt die on us!
Becca and Dani's awesome adventure:
college park was kinda not fun because the boys forgot about me and danielle coming to visit or didn't answer their phones. grrr
oh well. we clocked it and danielle and I will be living 3 minutes away from eachother, walking at a leisurely pace. and I'm like 2 seconds from the diner and 3 from the rec center. college will be so fun. oh and we found the farm thats on campus. if i ever get homesick theres a piece of damascus right there! ha
the moonbounce and rock climbing wall were pretty hot. i wish we could've played.
found chipotle and all the other fun places to eat. glad i'm gonna life so close to the gym. FU!
so once we got tied of college park we left for baltimorphine (how cute!) traffic is fun. especially when you're having an emo fest. guess what I'm half decent! yay for me!
Lifehouse was amazing. jason wade is as cute as ever. and even though he had bronchitis he still sounded amazing! i forgot how much i love them. i NEED the new cd. take me away!
finally got the ugly under 21 x's off my hands. how many day's til we can drink?

i can't believe how everything is winding down. my LAST orchestra concert is on thursday. after nine years its just going to be over. excuse me if i cry.
the next month should be pretty awesome!

and star wars comes out in 11 days. watched eps 2 last night. i need to get caught up and watch eps 4-6.

and now i hafta pee, since I'm Rebecca

would you believe me if i said i didnt need you?

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 02:10:37 GMT

cause i wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me!

the GOOD:
*I FOUND A WHITE DRESS! i acctually found one i like better but the zippers were broken on every single one. who ever designed it was a douche
~I finished my rough draft for ap lit
*we didnt do anything in math today!
~Dani sent in her UMD deposit! yes!!!
*We are going to CP after the ap us exam!!
~We are going to the LIFEHOUSE CONCERT!
*senior banquet!I hope me and ames win siamese twins. cuz we are
~mr damascus. good times for sure
*amy got a a car kit for her van. NO MORE RAIDO IN THE MORNING!
~ U Might be White. i dunno why but that was so funny
*AUSTRALIA is SOON
~GRADUATION IS SOONER
*I'M WORKING AT CAMP AGAIN!ha i hope JT is there

the BAD:
~I got my first C on an anatomy test.
*i think my rough draft is all wrong
~the FU group needs prom dates!
*AP exams are NEXT WEEK
~I hate having to justify why I'm going to umd. everyone probably thinks i'm a sell out, even the ones who wont say anything. yea i got into 8 other schools but hey umd is right for me. and when I'm a world famous surgeon, stop by and say hi. maybe'll i'll give you 50% off your next surgery.
*the cat carcass is starting to smell
~I need a job
*I'm gonna miss my friends

The GOOD is winning!

I'm on my feet.
This isn't like us anyway.
I'm running...
Our time is almost here.

OUT TIME IS ALMOST HERE!!!

there's no going back

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 00:27:20 GMT

dear colleges 2-8,

sorry but I'm going to UMD!

Love,
Becca

Heck yea! if you asked me last year UMD was def on the bottom of my list. but after I visited last friday I can't see going anywhere else. Theres so many awesome opportunities there it's ridiculous like honors, Gemstone, research at NIH and everywhere else in DC. and the number one reason...DANIELLE is going there!!! I am so pumped

so I sent in my enrollment and deposit thing. gulp! no enrolled students remorse yet! and even if i do get it all i have to do is talk to droy and she reminds me how awesome it will be!

now i get to reject all the 8 other schools. what fun!

i was reading about all the bio classes and honors seminars i'm going to take (yea i'm a dork!) i was so excited! i can't wait to learn

the cat dissection is super fun. well not really. i had to skin it by myself. but I havent vomited yet so maybe I can be a doctor

ha! i finally got my cds! you can send music over instant messanger!!!!
i <3 adam mcgee!!!

heres the plan: may 6th...take ap us exam...speed to COLLEGE PARK...then speed to baltimore to see LIFEHOUSE!!!! i hope it works out

breathing a sigh of relief!

there is no reward

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 21:30:39 GMT

I was reading my journal from last year's Walk 4 Kids and I was really upset that we only raised $6,500.
I don't know how I'm suppose to feel this year since we raise only half that amount.
It's so depressing to work so hard to organize something and have such a crap turn out.
It doesn't make any sense. We did the best job with logistics and advertising this year and it was the worst year ever. I mean dc101, a moonbounce, and free food? who wouldnt want to come?
The money we raise will make a difference for a few kids but I wanted to be able to help as many as I can.

I'm depressed.

In other news
the umd visit was good. the college of life sciences seems really great and the research/internships they can find are ridiculous. i love the pre med advisor! i can live in the nice dorm cuz i'm in the honors program. the gemstone program seems kinda overwhelming but i can always drop out of it. so far its the only place i've visited and not had the "i dunno" feeling on the drive home.

i <3 how i saw 4 outta like the 8 kids i know who go there. and the first people I saw all went to dhs. pretty crazy

I've prayed about it. I think I finally got my answer.

so i was reading rabbit, run yesterday while letting my rabbit run round outside. and then a squirrel was like giving birth or something. weirdest thing i have ever heard. it scared me so i went back inside.

you can make or break my day

I graduate in 46 days
I leave for Australia in 63 days

aww my journal is 1 year old today!

I just dont know

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:43:38 GMT

RECAP

i was attacked by a rat in amy's car
we saw a guy get shot in my old neighborhood
i laughed so hard i popped a stitch

i <3 roadtrips!!!

FYI: they hit the Pope on the head with a silver hammer just to make sure he's really dead. Why can't they just poke him?

you can't handle my love

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 03:40:25 GMT

So I found out I got into all 9 colleges. pretty insane.

Easter was good. Went out to dinner with the fam. yum

DC with the girls was wet. I hate the rain. museums are boring but mongolian bbq was soo good. a lil burnt and lack of hot guys cook the food. but wow an entire lacrosse team was there! too bad i didnt have any paper when the hot guy shouted his number to me.

scary hobos chasing us up the escalator and snorting tic tacs. ha me and em were looking good!

hit up jimmie cone in the rain. what a wild spring break

i hafta get my teeth pulled tomorrow. ffuuuuccckk!
I guess I should go start fasting

He suffered, died, and was burried

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 05:35:13 GMT

spring break is finally here!

what a crazy week

Impact was awesome! i <3 david crowder now. God loved you even when you were a worm. its kinda a bummer how the people I use to love hanging out with now annoy the crap outta me. ha he probably does like me. uhh i dont like feeling this way. mmmmm Ritas! how good is that stuff? OC trip just to eat! lets DO IT!

QUIT my JOB! after one day of training. sorry but i wont tolerate some douche bag yelling me for only 7 bucks an hour. I have enough stress

school is such a joke. i have more a's then i've had since sophmore year and i don't do shit. what a life. except calculus which has decided to bite me in the ass. fts

today was awesome. spontaneous DC trip with D~roy and MC. tried to get to georgetown but got lost. so we wandered around the gw campus. found a fridays and guess what giant cockroach under are table! Ya'll aint never seen a roach before! yick. then starbucks then home. but it is unlawful to have food or drink on the trains or platforms. what a crap law. so afraid of being arrested i stuffed the drinks in my coat. lady with a baby! dont bend over your water will break! then some peeing at mcds and applications at splurge. then mc's house for dazed and confused. dont write a check your butt can't cash. i <3 coloring. use this color it'll change your life

Richmond wants me! what a shocker. too bad I hate that school now that they went all 40k on me. and they can only give me 6000. whatever. 7 down 2 to go!

nother dc trip on monday. holla.

The Surgery is fast approaching. I <3 my friends. making sure i have fun before the pain

O.M.G. I strongly dislike you right now

Jesus Christ gave up his life for your sins. Thats what I'll leave you with.

You're alive but are you really living?

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 20:40:10 GMT

The good:
*I got a job
*some band kid gave me his popcorn chicken
*Best quote ever "I hate skinny girls! Thick..thats the way to go!" ha I <3 him
*my sister just ordered pizza off the internet
*DC101 is coming to the walk
*impact is TOMORROW

The bad:
*I think i'm going to hate my job
*I think I have to pay for the pizza
*I have to pack for impact
*I'm gonna miss damascus idol tonight!!

I think now is a great time for a nervous break down

i'm not o fucking kay

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 03:49:09 GMT

delaware wants me! and i'm worth $18,000.

5 down 4 to go

i'm worth 23,000 to ursinus.

visited umw today. I love the campus and it feels right but my parents are all skeptical about the science and premed programs. and of course they transfer their worries to me. so now i dont know what to do. if i was any sort of smart i would go to umd and be in the honors and gemstone thing. but of course i'm not.

DC101 might come to the walk for kids! and we got a moonbounce! and chicfila might donate food and a cow. how pumped am I! its going to be the best walk ever.

i got my hair cut and its a monstosity. I look like fucking medusa. I know I've always been a hideous creature who turns men in to stone, at least now I look the part.

reality make me want to cry

I gave you up for lent

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 00:43:51 GMT

Found out I got into Ursinus yesterday. not a big surprise but its still exciting. now if they could only send the scholarship info...
so 4 down 5 to go. I am INSANE for applying to 9 schools. I dont even want to go to most of them any more. I've decided I can't live off in the wilderness with no means of transportation.

This week has been unusually good. I missed school to go to festival. I was sad cuz it was my 6th and final fetival and I thought we were going to suck. I haven't been to states since middle school and i really wanted to go. So we performed and did better than expected. a 1 slash 2 which is a 1 in virginia. So maybe we have a chance of going to states. probably not but I'm glad we did well. better than when we had nixon which makes no sense. and what is with kids being to EMBARASSED to be seen carrying their violin cases. seariously they hide until no one is in the hallways and then run like theres no tomorrow. and when we had to wear our dresses ALL i heard about was how we are such band freaks and losers. one kid even tried hiding under my dress. and I know theres lots of room and all but I'd prefer if they didnt use it as a tent. Maybe its cuz I'm old or just dont give a shit what people think of me but I am so glad I'm not like that. its the question of the day: why are we afraid to be who we are?

and then we got to watch drumline everyday for the rest of the week. how good is that movie. nick cannon is such a cutie...maybe because he reminds me of someone

i met my wisdom teeth pulling doctor man. he told me all about the risks and complications. nerve damage, cracked jaw, loss of other teeth, and death. sounds like a party. I could like him but he called me kiddo and punched me just one too many times

i've just realized i had chicfila 2 times this week. thats kinda disgusting. i'm going to run over the weekend. how great was monday with the warm weather. except my legs resemble the color of uncooked chicken. tan much? tennis was fun except we are so outta practice. can't decide if i want to play in college. i love it but i want to try other stuff. rugby? hell yea

some how i think i passed my calc test. deciding to pay attention half an hour before the test really pay off. and how great was that assembly! NO MATH! and no math on monday cuz i'm visiting mary washington. I'm so pumped!!

Got to hang out with debbie tonight. I miss that kid so much. I havent seen her in forever which is ridiculous bc i like her more than most people. really bad movie but good times!

They only keep me around for finanacial aid purposes.

spring break heres the plan: go to umd with danielle and sell my pain killers to get some money. and then go see gavin degraw.

The walk for kids is going to KILL ME! its one of those times i wish i could do it all myself

48 days and i'm still here

hey impact is NEXT WEEKEND!just in time to save my life

ew i'm such a cheater. i've had ice cream like 3 times since lent started. and twice i didnt mean to cheat. I should add on a week as punishment or something.

I guess we are all sort of Pinocchio.

Sorry I ruined the plan but I'm seariously beginning to doubt your taste.

job search begins tomorrow

my dentist is proud of me

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 21:13:43 GMT

dear snow,
thanks for coming!
Love,
Becca

has anyone else realized we went to school for a total of 2 days this week!
and with a wintery mix coming sunday night could we possibly have a 5 day weekend? oh i hope so.

so i made the most of my days off by being sick, writing my paper, and watching too much tv. but how good was the oc on thursday? def the best episode in a long time. then on friday the ace gang went dress shoping. i found some nice ones but what ever disease i have contracted made me exhausted and feeling icky. and i still do. i should probably stay home in bed tonight but thats not me.

i think i need a break from you. maybe from everyone.

whats the worse that I can say

you know when i'm ready to give up. i guess its not over

things are better if i stay

play mash in math class sometime. but i refuse to marry him even if the kids would have curly hair

give 'em hell kid

i guess i remember every glance you shot me

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 03:49:04 GMT

how hideous was today. was woken up by screaming parents. wandered into the shower then was dragged out by screaming sister. then i got yelled at for screaming expletives too early in the morning. my dawsons creek viewing was interrupted by my sisters screaming friends who came over before they all went ice skating. then everyone left and i had the house to myself. ate some life cereal and went for a run. then some heart of darkness sparknotes, implicite differentiation, and major practicing of symphony #8 in g major. then my a string decides to unravel. holy poo i just replaced it. i was so pissed. spent like an hour replacing it with an old one and now it has this hideous twanging noise. i'm so fucked. couldnt be bothered to go to synago so watched some friends reruns. tbs is the best channel when life is boring.

had fun at ursinus on saturday.acctually not really. my parents didnt tell me when we were leaving so i didnt have time to brush my hair or eat breakfast. i acctually threw a semi-tantrum thing. havent done that in years. was kinda embarassing but i was pissed. whatever. the interview was a waste of time. it was just like the last one except i got free snacks and a tour of the bio labs. i still can't decide if i could spend four years there. theres not much in collegeville besides the mcdonalds and the adult video store. the mall was fun tho. i'm definetly going back when i am rich and not wearing boots. oww.
we ate dinner at some funny asian bistro and they set my sisters carrots on fire.

oh and i got into the honors program and gemstone at UMD. that place looks better all the time, especially to my parents.

the snow never came.

i want those cds i was promised

118 days until australia i think that means 98 until graduation.

4 weekends until impact

i'll remember what you told me until i forget

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 04:51:47 GMT

found out I got into UMD today. how stressful was that my effing pin number wasnt working for like an hour and then when I was about to have a coronary I got this random email saying I got in. crap like this always happens to me. Everyone always finds out if the got in before me. whatever. got in to Dickinson and Mary Washington too. 3 outta 9 very exciting. i'm pretty sure i'll end up at umw. which is good cuz its gorgeous and not tooooo expensive. which means i might get my own car...? ha yea right

how effed am i. i have another interview at ursinus tomorrow about scholarships. they like me so much they want me to come back. riight. i'm talking to a guy from the bio department of something. it'll take him two seconds to realize i am a rambling idiot who doesnt know a nephron from a gymnosperm. shhiiiiitttt!

how awesome was today. no school, chipotle, and shopping. never eat a burrito and then run 2 miles. its not good. then i did some much needed cleaning and watched the notebook again. which is the best way to spend valentines day watching sob story movies by yourself. i think i'll make it a tradition. uggg and valentines day. what a crap holiday. all the singletons whine about not getting fatting chocolate and being alone. good lord. i for one enjoy being single. i have maintained my sense of humor.

lets see what else...failed a calc test. would've failed an anatomy test buuttt it was open book. ha and i still got questions wrong. wtf with a little fts! passed my playing tests in orch. thank god i was so nervous. i'm trying to maintain the appearance that i acctually have talent and desrve my chair when in reality i dont. i got cs lewis as my author for ap lit. should be pretty easy with all his christian apologetics and what nots. but i can't be bothered to do anything anymore. especially that ap us 160 question test. yea right.

i wish i could read your mind

now i must got fathom what i will wear tomorrow. but hey i get to go to the king of prussia mall. which is like the 2nd largest in the country. holler.

no matter how many time you read it, he always dies in the end